I'm so proud of my man!

In the past, Barry, who I love more than I can possibly express, has been my enabler. What whatever reason (and there are several options), he would just "go along" with what I said I wanted to eat. Even if my plan was for chicken, rice and veggies, if I suddenly felt like A&W, then we had A&W (they do something to the Root Beer when you have it in the restaurant.

Anyway, tonight we had a couple of stops to make and nothing readily available for dinner and we were both very hungry (I was bordering on woozy) ... we stopped at our local Shoppers and Barry had gone into A&W to use the bathroom. He met me at Shoppers and we were discussing dinner and I suggested A&W (I didn't really feel like it; I'm not sure what my motivation was) and he said no. I couldn't believe it. But I was so proud. I think it's 'cause he has more faith in me these days and the past week or so has been really rough that he didn't want to see me slide back into my old habits.

So we went to Health Plus, I grabbed some vitamins and a really healthy bar and ate it on the way home. Then I made dinner. Mac and real cheddar and some carrots. Not the best meal but a damned site better than a Mozza Burger, Onion Rings and Root Beer (probably would have put me at about the 1,500 cal mark for 1 meal (my DAILY allotment is 1,300). I'm sure I had more mac and cheese than I should have but it was the lesser of 2 evils.

Plus I feel like I've grown a spare tire in just one week.

Visited chiro (been having back trouble the past week) and he said it was important to keep working out (which I did this morning ... cut WAY back on my weights and I'll take it a little easy the rest of the week with the weights then ramp it back up again next week if all goes well (which it will).

I shall bid you all adieu for the night ...

I think the pain is gone...

I think it's gone finally. There's still remnants but I think I'm a lot better. I had a good day today. Ate well, actually did my workout, updated my journal.

We had friends over for brunch this morning ... had a great time. But still kept very close to my schedule.

Yes, it is possible to achieve your goals ...

It would be so easy ...

to slip back into old habits that is. It occurred to me this morning as we were coming home from Sobey's, that it would be so easy for me to just slip back into old habits ... poor eating, lack of exercise, fighting depression....

but I'm kinda stubborn. and I refuse to give up or give into the "old" self. It's taken me too long and too much hard work to get where I am.

My back started at me on Thursday morning and hasn't let up. My chiro helped with the worst of it on Thursday but I've beena little incapacitated since then.

so tomorrow's the beginning of a new week. I'm determined to get my neck and back into shape again. If I'm a little uncomfortable, so be it.

We have friends coming from brunch tomorrow ... nutrition will be a little challenge but I'm going to chart it now so I'm track in the a.m. 7 am - I'll be up doing cardio and yoga. And take it one day at a time!

So have faith ... if I can get back on track ... you can do it too!

it's how you react ...

Today was interesting. My upper back seized up on me. That was exciting. Came home and I think I failed to close the freezer properly 'cause the door was open. I kinda lost it. Didn't eat dinner properly. Barry was out.

I don't handle stress all that well. I tend to eat. Poorly. Anyway ... hopefully I'll be moving better tomorrow.

I'm really looking forward to this week being over. Poor nutrition, moderately acceptable workouts.

Thankfully tomorrow's the end of the week.

Later!