I've taken a rather unexpected break from the blogging community. For the most part I've been keeping up with everyone else's blogs...just ignoring my own.
I feel like I've been going full tilt (like so many people are right now) for too long without taking a break. I ended up taking a break Thursday 'cause I was sick. I'm still tired. I know I'm near the finish line but OMG I don't want to do this next year. My sister always tried to encourage me to have balance in my life. I don't seem to really be too familiar with that word.
As I was writing, My Immortal by Evanescence was playing. Awesome song. Awesome singer ... hellavu voice. Made me a little sad tho.
Anyway, I digress. I've also been struggling with keeping my focus on my fitness. I've neglected my journal updates. I actually blew off Friday's workout ... just too tired. but tonight I'm going to re-focus and get my plan for tomorrow on paper (laptop actually). Too many lunches out, too many hurried dinners. The end of this 12 weeks is January 8th. I know I've made a lot of progress. I used to be an 18-20 at Addition-Elle ... my last purchase there was a 14. So I know, I know, I know I've made progress. Just slipping into some bad habits that have to stop. Historically Christmas was always the time of year I said "to hell with it, it's Christmas" but I just can't do that this year. I've fought too hard for too long to let things go all to hell now. I've got a very long way to go to achieve my ultimate goal, I figure by the end of summer 2010, I should be in the shape I want to be in. Healthy, fit, tanned, happy. I'm always happier in the summer ... most of us probably are.
I've been so bloody emotional lately. PMSing I guess. Even though I don't actually get a period, I still get some of the symptoms ... thankfully they're not too bad. Or maybe it's just perimenopause since I'm actually the right age for that. But I know that whatever the problem is, my eating has a lot to do with it to I just have to get that under control. And spend more time with a certain someone doing something other than watching that freeking idiot box. I've been spending way too much time downstairs in front of it instead of doing other things. We've gotta get back to eating at the dining room table so we actually talk. And it's better for digestion and getting dishes done right after dinner instead of sitting there overnight. Man I hate doing that.
But it's so easy to get into bad habits ... a lot tougher to break them and replace them with good habits. I need a good workout ... it'll make me feel better.
I promise to be better tomorrow.